Crying Help (Malva and Rashesh) - Eternal City RP2024-03-28T23:56:31Zhttps://eternalcityrp.com/forum/topics/crying-help-malva-and-rashesh-1?commentId=6610746%3AComment%3A369853&xg_source=activity&feed=yes&xn_auth=noShe may have scoffed a little…tag:eternalcityrp.com,2020-04-08:6610746:Comment:4042152020-04-08T07:57:03.824Z✓ Malva Ailwardhttps://eternalcityrp.com/profile/GenevieveEvans
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: 400;">She may have scoffed a little bit too loud for her own liking, "Yeah, it really is… but unfortunately, that's a way to live for me. Showing weaknesses… when you're not even sure who you could trust, that's a big thing to be doing." In her case, Malva didn't have a lot of people she could trust far beyond the friendship line. It's just how things are, unfortunately. "Can't get anymore tedious after you've been doing the same thing…</span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: 400;">She may have scoffed a little bit too loud for her own liking, "Yeah, it really is… but unfortunately, that's a way to live for me. Showing weaknesses… when you're not even sure who you could trust, that's a big thing to be doing." In her case, Malva didn't have a lot of people she could trust far beyond the friendship line. It's just how things are, unfortunately. "Can't get anymore tedious after you've been doing the same thing and routine for centuries though… at least that's what I tell myself. It doesn't get better and I know it won't get any better anyway, so really what's the point in wishing it would, right?" The Aspect of Magic wasn't one to play around with hopes and wishes, it irks her. When he exclaimed that they were breakers of their rules, Mal narrowed her bright hues playfully, "If I make them then I can break them." Nobody was going to stay long enough to abide by every single word, anyway. </span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: 400;"><a href="https://66.media.tumblr.com/c42ecfa5fa9208a8d871dfaba01c8ba8/tumblr_inline_nr4v006kqU1qfs24i_250.gifv" target="_blank" rel="noopener"><img src="https://66.media.tumblr.com/c42ecfa5fa9208a8d871dfaba01c8ba8/tumblr_inline_nr4v006kqU1qfs24i_250.gifv?profile=RESIZE_710x" class="align-left"/></a>"The time comes when you're smart enough to fool your way around the system, that's when you know you've got something going on" she retorted dryly, but made an attempt to hear him out afterwards. Even Mal had to admit, she may be a hard headed person who doesn't like to listen or take orders from anyone due to her rebellious nature but she does hear them out from time to time. What he said made her purse her lips slightly for a moment, there wasn't a wrong in what he said either. Could it be that she's been the one doing the wrong all this time? "Well… your thought is very much appreciated" She eventually gave him a look that said 'I'm not about to repeat that again for you so don't even try' later. </span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: 400;">"Believe me, I want to lean on them. We used to work so well back then, we didn't fight as much too. Sometimes I'd like to think that the strain between us is caused by the villain of this story. That… somehow, they're the ones doing this to us. Breaking us one by one. But a part of me also thinks that perhaps, we're just broken. You can't live this long and be fine with everything that you've done without thinking about it again. All the actions I've done, it comes back to haunt me and I wonder if I'm just too scared of facing them again so much I pushed every person I ever cared for because they're a reminder of that." Every time she stares at her family, she'd be reminded of the families she's ruined for the sake of maintaining the balance of the world. What about the bad guy's family? They'd feel the same loss. "At the scale I'm currently at, right now? I wish it would go away instead of staying back and taunting me like a child" she grumbled, it was frustrating enough to grasp her head around this problem, now she didn't even know where to even begin, in order to fix it. </span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: 400;">When the Celestial asked her if anyone else in her family was suffering from the same, Malva could see the panic undertone to him and knew he was probably asking about a certain sister of hers, "I think everyone is struggling, at the moment. But they're trying… so that's a good thing. I can't say I know what's going on with them either… which does make me feel like I'm a bad sister. When one of us struggles, the others would be affected just as well. It's the reason why the Gods gave 8 instead of 1, the reason why we're connected. One cannot survive without the other." It's a fair transaction. "I think I'm more afraid of causing more harm instead of losing the spark to me." The energy was still flowing through her veins, she just didn't know how to trigger them again is all. And without control over her domain, what hope would the others have to help her?</span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: 400;"> "Please, I know I've been fucked in the head long before people even knew mental health was a legit thing in civilization. I live in a secluded and isolated island, Ra. I have nowhere else to be back then." Mal was a bit reluctant to steal him away from his work just so he could help her with her problems but she was also desperate, "Please? I mean if you're fine with it." </span></p> Rashesh looked her over for a…tag:eternalcityrp.com,2020-03-20:6610746:Comment:4029222020-03-20T14:31:17.922Z2pztcy04mdhjahttps://eternalcityrp.com/xn/detail/u_2pztcy04mdhja
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">Rashesh looked her over for a moment and shook his head. “Not being able to be weak around those you rely on sounds like an awful way to live.” He frowned for a moment thankful that he didn’t have to live his life always being strong. “How exhausting that must truly be.” he said gently with slight sympathy. As she spoke about how she got around the guards from time to time he gave a slow smirk. “Makers of your own rules and yet breakers of your own rules.…</span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">Rashesh looked her over for a moment and shook his head. “Not being able to be weak around those you rely on sounds like an awful way to live.” He frowned for a moment thankful that he didn’t have to live his life always being strong. “How exhausting that must truly be.” he said gently with slight sympathy. As she spoke about how she got around the guards from time to time he gave a slow smirk. “Makers of your own rules and yet breakers of your own rules. Seems like you need some kind of other system.” He said waving his gloved hand in the air. “I get your guys importance on the world.”</span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">The stark looked down to the body for a moment. “You shouldn’t be alone, Isolation breeds some of our darkest thoughts and inabilities to go on. Sometimes we think we need to be alone. And sometimes it is healthy for us. Yet our body has a physical reaction to the Isolation. It’s a carnal feeling that is meant to drive us mad when we are alone so we will seek out others.” He said as he looked back to her. “Just a thought.” He said with a shrug as he then leaned on the table for the moment. “Mmm.” he thought on her words for a moment and then shook his head. “You are here to keep balance because they knew you could handle that weight. The eight of you don’t have to do it alone. You have each other to lean on. Maybe focusing on that will help make it feel easier.”</span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">As he listened to her talk about the blockage issue she was having. He was thinking it was far more of a spiritual issue than a physical one. With physical at least he stood a chance at helping. But when it came to deeper matters, Malva may have to dig deep within herself to have a fighting chance at her reconnecting. “Well withering means that it isn’t gone. Not yet. So there has to be a way.” He said as he thought about Cora, he wondered if she was having issues with her problems. “Are you...Are you the only one having issues? Maybe it's something happening to the Ailwards themselves? Maybe it is an outside force?” He almost had a panic undertone at the thought that Cora could come to harm, After all he had witnessed how powerful Mal was back under captivity. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">He refocused himself on the woman with the problem in front of him. “Well sometimes it takes the right bump.” He said with a shrug. “It could be the first time or the fiftieth.” Rashesh looked her over for a moment and rubbed his hands together. “Tumors in the brain are tricky one day there can be nothing. A few days later there could be a golf ball.” He nodded for a moment. “We can go do it now. This.” he looked over to the woman on his table. “It can wait a little bit.” He said as he then looked to her as she choked out a laugh. “You that fucked in the head that it makes you laugh?” he chuckled lightly for a moment.</span></p> She couldn't help but to let…tag:eternalcityrp.com,2020-01-26:6610746:Comment:3986172020-01-26T15:23:00.444Z✓ Malva Ailwardhttps://eternalcityrp.com/profile/GenevieveEvans
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: 400;">She couldn't help but to let out a rather dry chuckle when he said they had a whole team of people to keep them safe, "It's not as easy as things make it look. We can't even afford to show any weaknesses to our own guards" she shrugged, she knows it would be a personal challenge for them to hide it away, especially from their personal guards. Mal had a hard time trying to evade Octavia but their relationship was unlike others. When…</span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: 400;">She couldn't help but to let out a rather dry chuckle when he said they had a whole team of people to keep them safe, "It's not as easy as things make it look. We can't even afford to show any weaknesses to our own guards" she shrugged, she knows it would be a personal challenge for them to hide it away, especially from their personal guards. Mal had a hard time trying to evade Octavia but their relationship was unlike others. When he asked her how it felt like for her, Mal tried to word it as easy as possible, "It's a protective measure. It shouldn't be something we're foreign to, sometimes we have to be protected, or else who's going to keep threading the balance of the world? But it gets tiring and annoying, for sure. When you want privacy, you can't exactly tell them you want to go outside somewhere in public without their eyes on you. They'll never allow it. And there were times when I had to make them…</span> <b>sleep</b> <span style="font-weight: 400;">for me to sneak out."</span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: 400;"> <a href="https://66.media.tumblr.com/d7870a2df3817f273d00337afb386fc2/tumblr_inline_nkm5wjAqJE1qfs24i.gif" target="_blank" rel="noopener"><img src="https://66.media.tumblr.com/d7870a2df3817f273d00337afb386fc2/tumblr_inline_nkm5wjAqJE1qfs24i.gif?profile=RESIZE_710x" class="align-left"/></a>When Tatiana was her guard, she never had that trouble because the Aspect of Magic would often sneak out</span> <b>with</b> <span style="font-weight: 400;">the dhampir's help. "But I have to get used to it. I can't be selfish. What if something happens to me because I insisted on being left alone? My insolence would cost me more than I thought." To be called the morbid one doesn't sound weird to Mal, she's always been so ominous and dark, even when she doesn't attempt to be it. "Just because I'm the eldest sister, doesn't mean I'm the responsible one. I was one of the youngest to die, everyone else should be older than me." If she could recall, she was only 19 when she passed. "You're right, sometimes we wish to be rid of the trouble the world lands on us. I did. But I'm here to be of service to the world, nothing more nothing less."</span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: 400;"> So free will? What's that even? The Aspect didn't expect to be given advice from Rashesh, of all people, but she wasn't dismissing it. God knows she needed a lot of those. Has she talked to people about it? Her problems? "Not directly. I've tried to communicate with the spirits by the ancestral plane, but they gave me the same answer over and over again. My connection. It's dwindling… withering. I need to reconnect or else, the trouble that'll befall us? I won't be there to fix it. I was thinking of going through it sometime this month, if I'm not kept busy here." It's not as if she didn't want to fix herself. "Besides, people can't read me. Unless you're an actual psychic, and even then I won't let you read me, it's just something that's been embedded inside me for centuries. Kind of a defense mechanism if one would say. I block them."</span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: 400;"> The last time she allowed someone in her head, she had snapped so hard because they went too far into her head. Too much into her</span> <b>past</b><span style="font-weight: 400;">. The thought of her suffering from brain damage was scary, even to the Aspect of Magic. She took a seat at the designated spot and stared at the male before her, sighing softly, "I don't know. I've hit my head plenty of times but… who hasn't? The most it'll do to me is probably concussion, something I can heal from" she couldn't think of anything else. "There's no way a brain tumor is growing there... " she shook her head, she scanned for that too, there's no way… right? "Go ahead, do whatever you think is necessary. The MRI scan is near my office level, we can go there once you're done here." She was on the pathology department, strangely near to radiology department. "Mental health?" she choked out a laugh, "Well… that's not… new."</span></p> “Well I guess with you Aspect…tag:eternalcityrp.com,2020-01-14:6610746:Comment:3977112020-01-14T13:25:14.620Z2pztcy04mdhjahttps://eternalcityrp.com/xn/detail/u_2pztcy04mdhja
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">“Well I guess with you Aspects it's a lot easier to hide your weaknesses since you have a team of people to keep yourself safe.” Rashesh pointed out, he had been held captive by them and couldn’t even point out a weakness short of ripping their heads off but he wouldn’t even get close to doing that with her, she would rip his heart out before he had a chance. “What is it like anyways? I have never had round the clock guarding well besides when I was in your…</span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">“Well I guess with you Aspects it's a lot easier to hide your weaknesses since you have a team of people to keep yourself safe.” Rashesh pointed out, he had been held captive by them and couldn’t even point out a weakness short of ripping their heads off but he wouldn’t even get close to doing that with her, she would rip his heart out before he had a chance. “What is it like anyways? I have never had round the clock guarding well besides when I was in your cages.” He joked for a moment and looked to her with a serious look. “Does it get annoying?” he wondered if she would be honest with him. “Or just use to it?” he offered her an out with the question.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">Rashesh blinked for a moment staring at her. “You are kind of a morbid one aren’t you? And here I thought the drunk one was to be the morbid one.” He snorted as he shook his head slightly at her. “At some point we have all wished to no longer live on this earth. If someone says otherwise they are lying.” He said as he focused back to what he was doing. “And we have all wanted forever. It's just a case of those who accept their truths or take things from themselves. “Yeah well sprinkle a little optimism in your life. Maybe find someone who does that for you. I think you would find a little sunshine goes a long way.” he said as if it was a fact, though who was he to say he spent weeks as an outright asshole after Emily going missing.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">He looked at her in disbelief. “Well what happens in the hall has nothing to do with me. I am only part of the Evermore General staff because the police department wanted it that way. So to me Missing people are a high problem.” He shook his head to her as he looked back to the body. Maybe he was too close to this but would he admit that outloud? No. He looked to her as she talked about their lower numbers and he then looked down for a moment, though her admittance of her powers not being up to par was what caught his attention. He looked to her with concern. “I know you are the aspect of <a href="https://66.media.tumblr.com/d3a2b93f195cdc415a50ef9fbb2cbce2/tumblr_inline_pggzmlKNm31rifr4k_1280.gif" target="_blank" rel="noopener"><img src="https://66.media.tumblr.com/d3a2b93f195cdc415a50ef9fbb2cbce2/tumblr_inline_pggzmlKNm31rifr4k_1280.gif?profile=RESIZE_710x" width="250" class="align-right"/></a>magic but have you talked to another magic wielder and let them see what may be stopping you?” He wondered to himself if all of this had to do with the craziness that seemed to hit Evermore in the face lately. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">He felt a sense of trying to help her but keep it a secret because if word got out, she would be a target and that was one thing even a celestial like him didn’t want. He then moved and patted the table there for her to sit down and pulled out his tracking pen. “Not brain damage unless you have taken and extreme amount of damage recently? Maybe something growing that shouldn’t be there? I can’t rule anything out till I do test if you want me too.” He said as he looked in her eyes with the light. “Once ruling out physical there is mental health also though.”</span></p> "Admitting you have a weaknes…tag:eternalcityrp.com,2019-12-17:6610746:Comment:3949892019-12-17T17:24:44.457Z✓ Malva Ailwardhttps://eternalcityrp.com/profile/GenevieveEvans
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: 400;">"Admitting you have a weakness is either a survivor's move or a foolish one, depending on your situation but I like to think that if there were better alternatives, I'd still opt for the other" Malva wasn't used to spilling anything, 1200 years can pass by and the Aspect of Magic will continue to keep herself tight lipped. Was she stubborn? Hard-headed? Maybe. But then again, who isn't? Especially for someone who had never needed to…</span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: 400;">"Admitting you have a weakness is either a survivor's move or a foolish one, depending on your situation but I like to think that if there were better alternatives, I'd still opt for the other" Malva wasn't used to spilling anything, 1200 years can pass by and the Aspect of Magic will continue to keep herself tight lipped. Was she stubborn? Hard-headed? Maybe. But then again, who isn't? Especially for someone who had never needed to look another way for help because she had people close to her for that? But now as her own siblings were slowly breaking apart from their circle following multiple tragedies that kept befalling the entire faction, she wasn't even sure what to know anymore. She couldn't even figure out what's wrong with her own magical state, much less other things. </span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: 400;">"Believe me, death is either a chance or the opposite. For some people, death is what they wanted instead of having to live on this earth as an immortal being watching as everything you cherish wither away. And another, wished to stay alive longer to enjoy the prospects the world has to offer." She didn't want to choose either one, really. What she wished for is for the world to keep on being glued up so they won't crack under pressure. She wasn't strong enough to handle anything else. Not yet. Not until Malva finally find out the reason to her magical properties deterioration. A chuckle escaped her when he called her a moody aspect, well he wasn't wrong, was he? Malva was often dubbed moody by a lot of people, in general. "Maybe I'm just being pessimistic</span> <b>and</b> <span style="font-weight: 400;">realistic?" Was that even a term together? "People going missing is the least of our problems right now… Evermore General is short staffed and we have double the number arriving in every single day, half of those are victims found outside our border." </span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: 400;"><a href="https://66.media.tumblr.com/ba3bb170a73de6a9e646e22c9adda99f/tumblr_inline_nqtjaxMhtX1qfs24i_250.gif" target="_blank" rel="noopener"><img src="https://66.media.tumblr.com/ba3bb170a73de6a9e646e22c9adda99f/tumblr_inline_nqtjaxMhtX1qfs24i_250.gif?profile=RESIZE_710x" class="align-left"/></a>Something is happening and if they don't get to the bottom of this soon, she wasn't even sure if there would be much of a city to look out for. "We don't have the numbers we once had, I'll be honest on that" Mal let out a heaved sigh and leaned against the table, "Some of ours even went missing during missions and I'm afraid of sending them out honestly. Because I can't track them. Either I'm being blocked or I'm just… being extremely unhelpful at a time like this." Which really doesn't work with the whole disconnection thing. "Either way, I'm not being helpful when I should be... " It was no wonder why Malva opted to stay here in her office instead of being cooped up in her room doing nothing. "Don't get me wrong, I've tried plenty of ways to get back on track but nothing seems to work. Not one." </span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: 400;">Last time she tried a simple tracking spell? The map busted into flames in less than a minute. Mal frowned when he suggested they should run a head scan if it was something physical blocking her, she never thought of that but so far the Aspect of Magic had been pretty healthy. No harm in trying out, though, right? "My family knows I'm a bit in a wack but I won't talk to them more than that. It's hard to acknowledge you're becoming incompetent in the area where you</span> <b>should</b> <span style="font-weight: 400;">be well-versed at. Do you think it's something physical? Like… brain damage?"</span></p> Rashesh gave a deep hum in ag…tag:eternalcityrp.com,2019-12-05:6610746:Comment:3943062019-12-05T03:35:43.609Z2pztcy04mdhjahttps://eternalcityrp.com/xn/detail/u_2pztcy04mdhja
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">Rashesh gave a deep hum in agreement with her most recent statement. “That it is none of us are truly immortal if you think about it. We all have a weakness, even if we don’t like to admit we do.” He said as he let a gentle breath from his nose. The fact of the matter being he didn’t know how much time he had left and yet he wanted to live every moment he had. He knew that she was much older than he was himself. Sometimes he wished to know what she had been…</span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">Rashesh gave a deep hum in agreement with her most recent statement. “That it is none of us are truly immortal if you think about it. We all have a weakness, even if we don’t like to admit we do.” He said as he let a gentle breath from his nose. The fact of the matter being he didn’t know how much time he had left and yet he wanted to live every moment he had. He knew that she was much older than he was himself. Sometimes he wished to know what she had been through that had made them fear the celestial enough to lock them up. His eyes looked at her slightly widen at her question and he his brows pulled together. “I would say at this moment I am grateful for it. Yet I think it varies, as when we were locked up I had wished for death, the day the woman I had love went missing I had wished for my death also. I think every immortal has those moments till they actually face death, and I don’t just mean your brother.”</span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">Ra eyes stayed on her as she talked about her behavior and how once upon a time it wasn’t like it was now. “Time and events have a way of changing people. But it is also in your control if you change completely or hold on the best parts of who you once were.” He said freely because he himself was a different person from the star that first hit the earth and yet he like to think he held onto the parts that made him, him. The way she spoke of the world caused the hair on the back of his neck to raise up. He had never met anyone who had talked about the world in such a way as if she was expecting something dark to happen just because that was how the world worked. “Damn that is dark, even for a moody aspect.” he said as he then looked back to the body.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">The reason they were both there he was sure at that point. Her just poking into him was more of a side venture. “We have been keeping the details under wraps with the lose of Cornelia everything in the city just seems tense.” He said as he then took a step aside from the body removing the gloves to gather the files. While the department had a task force on it, he didn’t see the harm in letting the Ailwards look into it also. Stopping the murders was what was the most important. He wanted to go a week without a woman looking like Emily showing up on his table. “More happening in the city than any of us want to admit.” He said as he sat the case files on the table that was not being used. “Maybe your guards can find something I haven’t been able to.” He let the breath pass from his lips.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;"><span><a href="https://66.media.tumblr.com/51638ccb8cf65b3828d5c693cacfa406/tumblr_inline_pggzv7g0oB1rifr4k_1280.gif" target="_blank" rel="noopener"><img src="https://66.media.tumblr.com/51638ccb8cf65b3828d5c693cacfa406/tumblr_inline_pggzv7g0oB1rifr4k_1280.gif?profile=RESIZE_710x" class="align-right"/></a></span>As her eyes softened towards him, he wasn’t sure what to do besides look down from her. “I just want answers at this point.” Rashesh had moved on, finding a place with Cora a place he had not expected and yet he could never truly let go until he knew what knew what happened to Emily. His eyes moved to look up at her as she spoke of a weakness of her own. She showed a vulnerable side to her, Yet it wasn’t comforting what she was saying. He stared at her blinking as he processed the fact that the Aspect of Magic couldn’t connect with Magic. “Well that doesn’t spell well for the city. Does your family know? Does Cora know?” He asked as he moved closer. “Maybe we should run a head scan and see if its something physical.”</span></p> Malva wanted no beef with any…tag:eternalcityrp.com,2019-10-02:6610746:Comment:3878242019-10-02T16:52:41.666Z✓ Malva Ailwardhttps://eternalcityrp.com/profile/GenevieveEvans
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: 400;"><a href="https://66.media.tumblr.com/0d41b66a2357c53790ef3ba56667d44c/tumblr_inline_nqsjg2wN8y1qfs24i_250.gif" rel="noopener" target="_blank"><img class="align-left" src="https://66.media.tumblr.com/0d41b66a2357c53790ef3ba56667d44c/tumblr_inline_nqsjg2wN8y1qfs24i_250.gif?profile=RESIZE_710x"></img></a> Malva wanted no beef with anyone in particular, especially the Celestials. She knew what she did was wrong but it seemed like it was the best choice at the time, they were in pain and it took them almost a century to get over the pain it caused them. It wasn't the kind where you…</span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: 400;"><a href="https://66.media.tumblr.com/0d41b66a2357c53790ef3ba56667d44c/tumblr_inline_nqsjg2wN8y1qfs24i_250.gif" target="_blank" rel="noopener"><img src="https://66.media.tumblr.com/0d41b66a2357c53790ef3ba56667d44c/tumblr_inline_nqsjg2wN8y1qfs24i_250.gif?profile=RESIZE_710x" class="align-left"/></a>Malva wanted no beef with anyone in particular, especially the Celestials. She knew what she did was wrong but it seemed like it was the best choice at the time, they were in pain and it took them almost a century to get over the pain it caused them. It wasn't the kind where you experience physically for a week or even a month before either passes off. It wasn't the flu nor was it a mild fever. It stayed with them throughout the course of their livelihood, she could remember it as if it was just yesterday because that was the reality of it; it</span> <b>did</b> <span style="font-weight: 400;">feel like it was just yesterday. But that's something she would keep to herself, telling another that she feels affected still after almost a century, would not benefit anyone else. Not theirs and definitely not hers. So why would she bother? "Immortality is a fickle thing" she murmured faintly, for someone who has lived her entire life doing nothing more but to be of service to the world, it could take its toll. </span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: 400;">Unfortunately for the Aspect of Magic, it did, 400 years ago. An incident she will never be able to forget. Now it feels as if it was just starting to circle back so it could come back to bite her. "I have yet to meet someone who is grateful for their immortality so I'll ask you, Rashesh" she turned to meet his gaze as she leaned against the metal table with a slight quirk of her lips, "Are you? Are you grateful for your immortality or would you prefer to be mortal?" Celestials were that species one never spoke much of, in fear that the Aspects would snap. It was a sensitive thing, after all. She spared him a small smile that indicated she was grateful for his wish, "I hope we still have more time to fix what we've done. I don't like the thought of stopping halfway because we had to." </span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: 400;">Chuckling at his remark regarding her behavior, Malva found it ironic because as a doctor, her bedside manner wasn't meant to be this abysmal, "You know, a friend of mine said I don't have the best bedside manner" she quipped humorously, what Ben said the first time had embedded itself inside her head, truly, "But then again, I suppose I can't be surprised because I've never been that good at emotions. Once upon a time ago, someone would have told you I am quite the compassionate soul but something must've happened, at least that's what they think" she shrugged absentmindedly, something</span> <b>did</b> <span style="font-weight: 400;">happen, but that was a story only the faction would know, and no one else. "People change, anyway." It wasn't as if Malva minded, she knew she became this person on her own choice; she chose this path. Being cold is a lot better than being someone who could end up hurting the ones she loves most. </span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: 400;">"The world is a cutthroat place. Enemies are everywhere. You can't satisfy everyone, unfortunately. But the good thing is, not everyone matters to me." No matter how harsh that sounded, that was what kept her standing until today. Her conviction. "I guess, in a way, many view weakness to be very detrimental to their… individuality." Perhaps. When they talked about their suspect, she pursed her lips lightly and tilted her head to the side to examine the body, "And that's a dangerous person indeed… to have someone this intelligent and ruthless to be running amidst us? I'll try to have the guards track what they can… We can't afford another case like this. There's been too much bad things happening in the city already." It worries her, what if the day has come to consume them, after all? Was this what their legacy would be? Shrouded by the darkness? </span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: 400;">Hearing him talk about his former lover, she pressed her<a href="https://66.media.tumblr.com/224695917fb4300c10326677a1e801db/tumblr_inline_nqsjna4XxX1qfs24i_250.gif" target="_blank" rel="noopener"><img src="https://66.media.tumblr.com/224695917fb4300c10326677a1e801db/tumblr_inline_nqsjna4XxX1qfs24i_250.gif?profile=RESIZE_710x" class="align-right"/></a> lips together and her eyes softened, she knew what it felt like to feel like that, "I'm sorry for your loss. No one should ever have to suffer like that. It's not fair." But then again, what is? "I know I said weaknesses is a no, but take this as my token to you. I want trust to be established and for that to happen, it must be gained. So this is mine to you. I'm weak and vulnerable, Ra. I haven't been able to function properly with my magic. I have no idea why. It feels like I was cut off. Yes, an Aspect shouldn't lose their connections to their element, it's dangerous. I'm fine… A few occasional nose bleeds from my performance but nothing serious yet."</span></p> Rashesh looked to her for a m…tag:eternalcityrp.com,2019-10-01:6610746:Comment:3875542019-10-01T02:11:15.831Z2pztcy04mdhjahttps://eternalcityrp.com/xn/detail/u_2pztcy04mdhja
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">Rashesh looked to her for a moment from the side of his eye and took in her answer. “I guess it doesn’t really matter in the end, especially for immortals.” He said softly as he looked back to the task at hand as the pair seem to have the anger melt between them into what he was sure was more of a mutual sadness for what had come to past. He watched as she spoke of how the last three years felt to her personally. He on the other hand had a different outlook on…</span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">Rashesh looked to her for a moment from the side of his eye and took in her answer. “I guess it doesn’t really matter in the end, especially for immortals.” He said softly as he looked back to the task at hand as the pair seem to have the anger melt between them into what he was sure was more of a mutual sadness for what had come to past. He watched as she spoke of how the last three years felt to her personally. He on the other hand had a different outlook on the three year period. “Well…” he mused over his next words carefully for a moment. “While I want you and your family to understand what has come to past, I don’t wish for you to feel the lost of your people or the aftereffects. I do wish you all the best in the end as captors you didn’t harm us in ways that where deemed unforgiving.” he said as he knew that they were fed and given things to survive. “Mistakes were made and beating ourselves up over them is pointless.”</span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">Ra hoped his words came off making a clear point, in hopes to lay the manner to rest finally. At this point in his life he had bigger fish to fry so to say. He gave a slight chuckle as she noted that he was not the first to point out her tone when talking to another. “Well as long as you are aware how you come off I guess there is no point in me pointing it out.” He was sure she had different sides of her as most people had the side they showed someone they are not overly fond of, and then side they showed to those closer to them. He was never one to dare tell a woman to soften her tone, he did once to his sister and found himself on the other end of a stick. So he focused his faze away from her cold one as he worked.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">Rashesh stayed quiet as mainly he didn’t know how to respond to the fact she didn’t let her emotions show because being weak for them meant something different. “Well I am sorry you have to live your life in such a way, it's a pity really. Not being able to be weak <a href="https://66.media.tumblr.com/e6be538df17cced689a47e17646dbfd4/tumblr_inline_nsfvuqb6FL1txmes7_250.gifv" target="_blank" rel="noopener"><img src="https://66.media.tumblr.com/e6be538df17cced689a47e17646dbfd4/tumblr_inline_nsfvuqb6FL1txmes7_250.gifv?profile=RESIZE_710x" class="align-right"/></a>to survive would drive anyone made. Rashesh nodded as he kept his eyes on the body parts for a long moment. “I believe this person is far more intelligent than we know. I fear this may only be the beginning of more if we are not careful. Evermore has been able to hide things like this rather well but the word we have a serial killer running around is going to bring a lot of unwanted attention on to the city. Being one of the only true supernatural hubs I know could mean something catastrophic.”</span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">He didn’t turn his gaze towards her as he was focusing upon the task of examining the body parts and taking notes into his recorder. “Her name was Emily.” he said as he ran his fingers along the liver slowly. “March 30th.” he said as he remembered the date well, as it was the day he was going to propose to her. “I had asked her to dinner as I had something special planned and she never showed up, I returned home and everything she owed was still there, I waited and when the 48 hour period past I reported her missing. He said moving on to the gallbladder, “True mastermind.” He muttered softly as he listened to her go through a process of trying to figure out who could have done this. His head raised and looked towards her as she spoke of her magic not being as strong as it once was. “I thought you didn’t speak of weaknesses?” He asked but then stopped what he was doing. “An aspect shouldn’t be losing touch with their element I would assume. Are you okay?” The fear that Cora may be next swirled in his mind wondering what on earth was happening in Evermore.</span></p> Malva had her lips pursed sli…tag:eternalcityrp.com,2019-09-18:6610746:Comment:3859522019-09-18T17:52:05.394Z✓ Malva Ailwardhttps://eternalcityrp.com/profile/GenevieveEvans
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: 400;">Malva had her lips pursed slightly upon hearing his remark<a href="https://66.media.tumblr.com/6c757c5bd985ce50bf6f1f3a1f4d7b9e/tumblr_inline_nqsjf6H50R1qfs24i_250.gif" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank"><img class="align-right" src="https://66.media.tumblr.com/6c757c5bd985ce50bf6f1f3a1f4d7b9e/tumblr_inline_nqsjf6H50R1qfs24i_250.gif?profile=RESIZE_710x"></img></a> regarding 3 years being short, "Perhaps… 3 years can feel like 30 years or even 300 years when it comes down to measuring certain matters, it could only feel like 3 months. Short… long, what does it really…</span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: 400;">Malva had her lips pursed slightly upon hearing his remark<a rel="nofollow noopener" href="https://66.media.tumblr.com/6c757c5bd985ce50bf6f1f3a1f4d7b9e/tumblr_inline_nqsjf6H50R1qfs24i_250.gif" target="_blank"><img src="https://66.media.tumblr.com/6c757c5bd985ce50bf6f1f3a1f4d7b9e/tumblr_inline_nqsjf6H50R1qfs24i_250.gif?profile=RESIZE_710x" class="align-right"/></a> regarding 3 years being short, "Perhaps… 3 years can feel like 30 years or even 300 years when it comes down to measuring certain matters, it could only feel like 3 months. Short… long, what does it really matter?" Huffing softly as she scrunched up her nose in retaliation to the matter that they have decided to put past them for the sake of a better future for the both of them, "In the end, the outcome still stays the same." It was faintly murmured but she had no doubt that considering the proximity both Rashesh and her were at, the male could hear her every word that was uttered, perfectly fine without any hearing aid. "Though I have to say...the past 3 years felt like forever for me. Hellish, even. God knows why… so many problems came sprouting like wild mushrooms from every corner and nook of the world." Maybe it was just her or maybe that was her instinct telling her to gear up for possible problems coming soon in the near future, it has done her good all these years, so why stop trusting it now?</span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: 400;"> But then again, logic has never been applied to the Aspect of Magic, if anything, she always seemed to find ways to defy every single bit of it just for the sake of proving she wasn't controlled by any entity but herself. But seeing the road she's currently on? It doesn't seem very likely that she is going down that path. "People say I can be quite nonchalant at times. Not surprising, I guess. It's just how things are, you give it too much thought you'd give it power to lord over you. I don't need to give another chance to do that. I have enough people and things lording over me" Adding another to her list wouldn't really do well on her plate. It does bother her at times how emotionless and cold she could look sometimes, the steely gaze across her bright hues that always seemed like it was trying to judge your entire existence once it fell down on you, even the slightest purse of her lips mattered then.</span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: 400;"> "I know I'm allowed to feel and I do… I'm not inhumane you know" she chuckled, finding the irony in her sentence because many people regard her that way simply because she never gave a care in the world</span> <i><span style="font-weight: 400;">directly</span></i><span style="font-weight: 400;">, "I just choose not to show them. People like me, we're not given the luxury to show our weaknesses. Our enemies see one bit of it and boom, they'd be scattering to take a chance to take us down with one flick." That wasn't paranoia, it was the truth. Whilst Malva can be seen as a figure by everyone else, she had plenty of enemies to count around. Well, she wasn't exactly the best Aspect to mess around with, given her temper and tolerance level. "I can't say they're stupid because for most parts, ammonium chloride does tend to stray others. To mix it with ethanol though, either they're stupid or insanely smart." </span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: 400;"><a href="https://66.media.tumblr.com/3b762c6aa877ba8b166e1be5724ae8da/tumblr_inline_nqsjgzMO4v1qfs24i_250.gif" target="_blank" rel="noopener"><img src="https://66.media.tumblr.com/3b762c6aa877ba8b166e1be5724ae8da/tumblr_inline_nqsjgzMO4v1qfs24i_250.gif?profile=RESIZE_710x" class="align-left"/></a>Her eyes never left the body that was cut by the Celestial, but glossed over the files and quirked her eyebrows, "Similar to your former beau? You think this is a personal attack towards you? When did the attack started happening if I may know? The specific dates?" It was important that she knows this, things had been so hectic and weird. It wasn't a coincidence. "The fact that they went down to all the trouble just to make it convincing to others… I'd give them A for commitment for sure." The thought of people messing with memories made her frown, "Diviners are not complex enough to be doing that without channelling a coven… and I would know…" Well, would she? "Maybe not… my magic hasn't been up to par lately, after all." It felt like a planned attack and it was sending her red alerts.</span></p> “Three years is not that long…tag:eternalcityrp.com,2019-09-13:6610746:Comment:3854192019-09-13T01:19:34.555Z2pztcy04mdhjahttps://eternalcityrp.com/xn/detail/u_2pztcy04mdhja
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">“Three years is not that long of a time.” Rashesh said as he looked at her through his thick dark lashes. “In the grand scheme of things, Three years to immortals is a drop in the sea, so to speak.” He mused as he then let out a soft breath. “Though I guess in the long run it is better for us to not fight. I would rather not go to war over misunderstandings.” He gave his last two cents on the matter he would much rather focus on the present. There was no point…</span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">“Three years is not that long of a time.” Rashesh said as he looked at her through his thick dark lashes. “In the grand scheme of things, Three years to immortals is a drop in the sea, so to speak.” He mused as he then let out a soft breath. “Though I guess in the long run it is better for us to not fight. I would rather not go to war over misunderstandings.” He gave his last two cents on the matter he would much rather focus on the present. There was no point in dwelling on past issues it only would make one sick and bring their own end, not to mention immortality gave to long of a time for one to hold a grudge and he personally wanted nothing to do with that kind of thinking. Of course there was the fact he developed feelings for Cora which was something the Fallen star never saw coming.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">Rashesh looked to her for a moment and wondered if she really could be so cold towards the people that were lost, or was she just trying to not show emotion to keep the mask up. “Well that is rather nonchalant way to look at it I guess.” he shook off the icy feeling that filled his veins at how she just spoke. “It's a step in the right direction.” He said as he returned his eyes back to the body. “Being mindful isn’t the worst thing, but know I don’t expect you to be cold about the lives you lost in the end. We all lost people.” He said honestly. “You are allowed to feel.” He said not looking back up to her in that moment as he was feeling around the flesh of the body.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">Rashesh slowly cut down the center of her chest peeling her skin aside and then cracked her chest and began to pull out parts of her insides and place them on the table beside him to get a closer look. “I think they are using the Ammonium Chloride to throw us off.” He mused as he cut open the lungs examining closely for anything taking samples as he went. “Lungs didn’t breath anything in on the last bodies and I have no doubt it will be the same for this one. Someone injected it and pumped her heart to get it through her vines so it formed crystals.” He said as he nodded to the arm closest to Malva.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;"> <a href="https://66.media.tumblr.com/259dbebdb7fbc558fb5f49056d69f985/tumblr_inline_nsfvv5DguD1txmes7_250.gif" target="_blank" rel="noopener"><img src="https://66.media.tumblr.com/259dbebdb7fbc558fb5f49056d69f985/tumblr_inline_nsfvv5DguD1txmes7_250.gif?profile=RESIZE_710x" class="align-right"/></a>“So either someone is messing with the files who work here. Or we are dealing with something far bigger.” He said as he moved on to her liver. “There are a few species that can mess with memories and stuff so someone could be controlling someone else.” He said as he then sat down his tools. “Or someone is doing this to mess with me.” He said soberly before looking to her. “Each of these women look like the girl I was with before Cora, she just disappeared one day without a word. The day she disappeared a body that looked like her showed up.” He said softly. “I am not sure if this is just a coincidence or not.”</span></p>