It's Okay Not To Be Okay (Open to Sunmin and Astraea) [COMPLETED] - Eternal City RP2024-03-29T00:52:06Zhttps://eternalcityrp.com/forum/topics/it-s-okay-not-to-be-okay-open-to-sunmin-and-astraea?xg_source=activity&id=6610746%3ATopic%3A429409&feed=yes&xn_auth=noShe was taken aback when he c…tag:eternalcityrp.com,2023-02-07:6610746:Comment:4346032023-02-07T10:05:04.150Z✓ Astraea Wuhttps://eternalcityrp.com/profile/Astraea
<p>She was taken aback when he challenged her on what was the worst name she could call him "Well... I could... call you honey..." She stuttered and was blushing hard again "God that sounds too much though, baby will do better... I like to call my star baby..." And now my star, now it feels better to her ears. "The grumpy cat can decide to be happy forever with me." She was more than happy to indulge in him if so. He can be happy forever with her, and she would love that even more. "Us against…</p>
<p>She was taken aback when he challenged her on what was the worst name she could call him "Well... I could... call you honey..." She stuttered and was blushing hard again "God that sounds too much though, baby will do better... I like to call my star baby..." And now my star, now it feels better to her ears. "The grumpy cat can decide to be happy forever with me." She was more than happy to indulge in him if so. He can be happy forever with her, and she would love that even more. "Us against the world right? Even before you told me you like me, it has always been like that."</p>
<p><a rel="nofollow noopener" href="https://64.media.tumblr.com/b77deb49fc92395c067f849b429d9f82/2e0cb14f47b20794-e2/s540x810/3c3eca8c89960f9b8aa38d31c39e268a8877d45d.gif" target="_blank"><img src="https://64.media.tumblr.com/b77deb49fc92395c067f849b429d9f82/2e0cb14f47b20794-e2/s540x810/3c3eca8c89960f9b8aa38d31c39e268a8877d45d.gif?profile=RESIZE_710x" width="240" class="align-left"/></a>When he brought one hand up to tuck a loose strand of hair behind her ear, she brought her hand up to his hair and stroke them gently, "You have everything to offer me... I have nothing too" she brought her hands down to cup his face and smiled "You are very handsome..." She had to say it, when she's looking at him this close, she couldn't help it, he's very good looking, all his features were distinctive and soft at the same time. "Stare at me some more then... I like it" this was the time for her to be cute, if she can't be cute for then who else would she be cute for?</p>
<p>She went up as soon as possible, rushing into her room to get her bag out and put all the necessary clothes she think she would need during their trip. Who knows right? Besides, it's cold... she looked back at the vanity mirror and decided to put up some light makeup too. Was she also dressing to impress? Maybe. But this day took a turn and she wasn't about to let him down. Perhaps this could very well be a new chapter in her story. </p>
<p><strong>Their story</strong>.</p> Her reaction made him chuckle…tag:eternalcityrp.com,2023-02-06:6610746:Comment:4344072023-02-06T23:56:52.331Z✓ Sunmin Parkhttps://eternalcityrp.com/profile/M
<p>Her reaction made him chuckle, perhaps it was a lot of power but he wasn't all that worried about it because she was such a nice person that she wouldn't dare to call someone by a name she knew they didn't like "What's the worst you could do?" he challenged her back, trying to call her bluff because he didn't believe for a moment that she would do anything cruel. "Maybe the grumpy cat has decided to be happy for one day" because of her, he felt happier when she was here.…</p>
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<p>Her reaction made him chuckle, perhaps it was a lot of power but he wasn't all that worried about it because she was such a nice person that she wouldn't dare to call someone by a name she knew they didn't like "What's the worst you could do?" he challenged her back, trying to call her bluff because he didn't believe for a moment that she would do anything cruel. "Maybe the grumpy cat has decided to be happy for one day" because of her, he felt happier when she was here.</p>
<p><a href="https://64.media.tumblr.com/1e833e14bbd2c679583b1ed3c8183ab9/f6d0e3b2ceaf63c3-6e/s540x810/1828bdbec937285db064f583c627c22db0546043.gif" target="_blank" rel="noopener"><img src="https://64.media.tumblr.com/1e833e14bbd2c679583b1ed3c8183ab9/f6d0e3b2ceaf63c3-6e/s540x810/1828bdbec937285db064f583c627c22db0546043.gif?profile=RESIZE_710x" class="align-right" width="280" height="176"/></a>He had a hint of a smile on his lips when she said she just wanted him to be himself "Good, because that's all I have to offer you" he murmured softly, he wasn't a man of huge means but she said that was enough for her and he wanted to believe in that. He chuckled a little when she asked if he would stop if she did "Probably not" he admitted bluntly and brought one hand up to tuck a loose strand of hair behind her ear "It's like second nature" he whispered softly.</p>
<p>She looked cute as she stood there for a moment debating in her mind whether she wanted to take the leap and just go, he was honestly half expecting her to back up on it or suggest they go another time, she did love to plan after all and this was asking her to do things without a single plan. "Okay princess, you go and pack and I'll head back and pick up the car" he murmured but despite suggesting they split up, he still felt hesitant to let her go. "See you soon?" he whispered.</p> She was half expecting him to…tag:eternalcityrp.com,2023-02-06:6610746:Comment:4345092023-02-06T23:08:57.082Z✓ Astraea Wuhttps://eternalcityrp.com/profile/Astraea
<p>She was half expecting him to scowl as usual and say it's not the type of endearment term he prefers, and that would be him being civil and nicest possible. "I can call you any name I want...? You're giving me way too much power right there, mister. You know there's a high chance I'd misuse it right? You know me" She teased, she wouldn't really but still, it was fun to tease him like that. "I'm not gonna lie, I was expecting your grumpy cat scowl... but I guess not." And boy was she…</p>
<p>She was half expecting him to scowl as usual and say it's not the type of endearment term he prefers, and that would be him being civil and nicest possible. "I can call you any name I want...? You're giving me way too much power right there, mister. You know there's a high chance I'd misuse it right? You know me" She teased, she wouldn't really but still, it was fun to tease him like that. "I'm not gonna lie, I was expecting your grumpy cat scowl... but I guess not." And boy was she delighted. "I'll call you baby sometimes... it comes to me naturally... I hope it won't be too much of a burden to you" She murmured while fiddling with her fingers shyly. And she's suddenly so shy around him it's crazy.</p>
<p><a href="https://64.media.tumblr.com/fe6055e28a3cca273617a55c9d1f0f9b/464f392844c070e1-51/s540x810/9e1c995eb031b66a2b95917853f74239b7f400bd.gif" target="_blank" rel="noopener"><img src="https://64.media.tumblr.com/fe6055e28a3cca273617a55c9d1f0f9b/464f392844c070e1-51/s540x810/9e1c995eb031b66a2b95917853f74239b7f400bd.gif?profile=RESIZE_710x" width="240" class="align-left"/></a>"No pressure of course, I just want you to be you" Well that sounded more cheesy that she expected but it does translate the message well. Her blush grew redder and deeper when he called her out on her staring, which made her clear her throat and avert her gaze. "Will you stop staring if I don't stare at you?" A part of her wants him to say no, actually... 99% of her wants that. She wanted to be stared, if she was being honest. Because someone is actually referring to her directly.</p>
<p>The one thing she could always expect Sunmin to do is to be adventurous and think out of the box. Of course he would casually suggest something so bizarre like that, but with her, she always wants to follow. If he said he was a bad influence to the aurazin, then she's a goner at this point. When he said they could really do it, Astraea was seriously thinking about it. A few moments later, she took his hand and look at him with those eyes again, "I'll pack my bag... I just need 20 minutes..."</p> He widened his eyes a little…tag:eternalcityrp.com,2023-02-06:6610746:Comment:4343502023-02-06T21:04:41.078Z✓ Sunmin Parkhttps://eternalcityrp.com/profile/M
<p>He widened his eyes a little in surprise when she called him by that name, he had to admit he was shocked to hear it from her lips, less because of the word itself and more because of how naturally it came from her. Her babbling afterward made him bite his lip though, just smiling as he let her talk "You should know by now you can call me by any name you want" he commented and chuckled, she had called him by so many nicknames in the time they had been friends "Call me baby if it feels…</p>
<p>He widened his eyes a little in surprise when she called him by that name, he had to admit he was shocked to hear it from her lips, less because of the word itself and more because of how naturally it came from her. Her babbling afterward made him bite his lip though, just smiling as he let her talk "You should know by now you can call me by any name you want" he commented and chuckled, she had called him by so many nicknames in the time they had been friends "Call me baby if it feels natural" and by the sound of it, it did.</p>
<p><a href="https://i.pinimg.com/originals/e8/79/a2/e879a2dc85ea2c9597f46a73712f78bf.gif" target="_blank" rel="noopener"><img src="https://i.pinimg.com/originals/e8/79/a2/e879a2dc85ea2c9597f46a73712f78bf.gif?profile=RESIZE_710x" class="align-right" width="256" height="205"/></a>He grinned slightly "I'll try to give you more of those" he commented and bit his lip softly, he'd give her the whole world if he could but he wasn't a man of huge means. Still, he wanted to give her happiness, he wanted to make her smile. Seeing the way her gaze softened he felt entirely captivated by those doe eyes of hers "I know" he murmured softly under his breath "But you started it" he jested slightly noting the way she was looking up at him.</p>
<p>He was half expecting her to brush off his suggestion with a laugh and suggest they ordered a pizza instead but the hopeful look in her eyes was enough to tell him she was up for really going. He pursed his lips and smiled "I did say up front it was doing something crazy" he commented and chuckled softly "But I'm serious, if you want to go then we'll pack a bag and go" she could forget about her pain for a while and just give in to adventure and he'd be right there by her side to look out for her.</p> "Will you copyright that phra…tag:eternalcityrp.com,2023-02-06:6610746:Comment:4343492023-02-06T20:11:56.706Z✓ Astraea Wuhttps://eternalcityrp.com/profile/Astraea
<p>"Will you copyright that phrase then? I thought when were together what's mine is yours and what's yours is mine baby?" She didn't even realize that she had let it slip, the endearment term. It took her a few moments to let that part register and suddenly gaped, "Sorry I totally didn't... Notice I said that... I don't know if you like being referred to such terms..." and of course she quickly panicked. Because if there was one thing she knows about Sunmin it's that he doesn't like being…</p>
<p>"Will you copyright that phrase then? I thought when were together what's mine is yours and what's yours is mine baby?" She didn't even realize that she had let it slip, the endearment term. It took her a few moments to let that part register and suddenly gaped, "Sorry I totally didn't... Notice I said that... I don't know if you like being referred to such terms..." and of course she quickly panicked. Because if there was one thing she knows about Sunmin it's that he doesn't like being referred to a lot of things. She did... find it comfortable and natural to call him things like baby, it just comes off like that when she was trying to refer to him *now*. He is somewhat supposed to be her boyfriend, right?</p>
<p><a href="https://64.media.tumblr.com/823a46c77dff7c19299c022e0e33b200/8d2ca38c9b2df074-7e/s540x810/c51b304390fec35214bedae0a127bccd30a28245.gif" target="_blank" rel="noopener"><img src="https://64.media.tumblr.com/823a46c77dff7c19299c022e0e33b200/8d2ca38c9b2df074-7e/s540x810/c51b304390fec35214bedae0a127bccd30a28245.gif?profile=RESIZE_710x" width="240" class="align-left"/></a>"I'll prefer other kinds of surprise gifts, if you get what I mean..." She teased, the sad mood from earlier might not have dissipated but it was gradually fleeting, especially when she knows he's trying to make her feel better. The fact that he even went as far as promising her to not bring back such surprises had her giving him soft eyes, that really means a lot considering how Sunmin handle things. Even so she still wouldn't mind, she just wished he wouldn't get himself hurt. She didn't want her favorite person to get hurt at all. When he lowered his gaze, she continued to stare at him and noticed the tender look he was giving her. "You're staring" She pointed out softly.</p>
<p>Cliff diving was probably not a wise choice but the fact that she guessed two of the things he had in mind clearly speaks volume. She knows him well and he her. No wonder they were able to get along after a while if they caught up to each other's habits this fast. When he suggested to go on a ride she was about to laugh, until he mentioned Disneyland, "You're joking... right? Disneyland... You're really gonna bring me there this fast? That's crazy... you're crazy" but the look of pure wonder and enjoyment was taking in his crazy decision as something that made her fall for him even more.</p> He chuckled and rolled his ey…tag:eternalcityrp.com,2023-02-06:6610746:Comment:4339992023-02-06T20:04:52.360Z✓ Sunmin Parkhttps://eternalcityrp.com/profile/M
<p>He chuckled and rolled his eyes playfully "I swear there's such thing as copyright for this exact reason" he commented and shook his head in amusement but he couldn't really complain because it honestly looked like a whole weight had been lifted from her shoulder in those moments. She said she wanted him to leave but he knew now he had done the right thing by insisting on staying. Just as he had come to rely on her, he realized she also reached for him too in her own ways. It made him feel…</p>
<p>He chuckled and rolled his eyes playfully "I swear there's such thing as copyright for this exact reason" he commented and shook his head in amusement but he couldn't really complain because it honestly looked like a whole weight had been lifted from her shoulder in those moments. She said she wanted him to leave but he knew now he had done the right thing by insisting on staying. Just as he had come to rely on her, he realized she also reached for him too in her own ways. It made him feel important.</p>
<p><a href="https://64.media.tumblr.com/c9a64546d87a8c8a8aa1b46b82e5252c/430d7d52a2b77959-21/s540x810/8e4613cfc50c8baabfd1048ceb807c64527f36c4.gifv" target="_blank" rel="noopener"><img src="https://64.media.tumblr.com/c9a64546d87a8c8a8aa1b46b82e5252c/430d7d52a2b77959-21/s540x810/8e4613cfc50c8baabfd1048ceb807c64527f36c4.gifv?profile=RESIZE_710x" class="align-right" width="280" height="233"/></a>"I'll try not to bring you back too many surprise gifts of those kind" he did promise that much, he knew she worried when he got himself into trouble and so he had been avoiding it more and more as best he could. As he held her there for those few fleeting moments he noticed the way she tilted her head to look up at him, so he lowered his gaze and smiled a little as he met her eyes, she had the prettiest eyes, he thought to himself, there was a depth and sparkle in them he'd never noticed when he looked at anyone else.</p>
<p>He scoffed a little when she asked if she could be worried "Well those did come to mind...though cliff diving in this weather would probably end up with us becoming those blocks of ice floating on the water like you see in those cartoons" he commented and pressed his lips together. She was right, his kind of crazy was a little grander than most he supposed "With a full tank of fuel we should be able to drive through Nevada and into California..." he murmured softly "This time tomorrow we could be in Disneyland?" crazy indeed but so was this entire day.</p> "Your line could be mine over…tag:eternalcityrp.com,2023-02-06:6610746:Comment:4339982023-02-06T18:18:32.072Z✓ Astraea Wuhttps://eternalcityrp.com/profile/Astraea
<p>"Your line could be mine over time, sharing is caring remember?" She shot back playfully, she remembered him telling her she should be more selfish too so she's doing exactly that now. It was a long overdue but at least she's getting hang of it now. Better late than never. She didn't want to do anything today if she was being honest because her death days, especially this day of all period, was a moment of grieving again. To mourn the life she could have had but to have it being replaced by…</p>
<p>"Your line could be mine over time, sharing is caring remember?" She shot back playfully, she remembered him telling her she should be more selfish too so she's doing exactly that now. It was a long overdue but at least she's getting hang of it now. Better late than never. She didn't want to do anything today if she was being honest because her death days, especially this day of all period, was a moment of grieving again. To mourn the life she could have had but to have it being replaced by another life she leads, maybe it wasn't as bad as previously.</p>
<p><a href="https://64.media.tumblr.com/815770f30028e1d67d1b3ed1d5a87f94/8d2ca38c9b2df074-0e/s540x810/a31328abfd5f12a70ce8bf54ebf6d875b11722e5.gif" target="_blank" rel="noopener"><img src="https://64.media.tumblr.com/815770f30028e1d67d1b3ed1d5a87f94/8d2ca38c9b2df074-0e/s540x810/a31328abfd5f12a70ce8bf54ebf6d875b11722e5.gif?profile=RESIZE_710x" class="align-left"/></a>"I won't ask you to shake your bad habits away, I know you, and I accept every part of you. Some will make me frown but does that mean I think any less of you? Never." How could she judge someone when she is also flawed? That seems to be contradictory on her part. "Besides, you're not the only one with flaws, I just hide mine a lot..." who wouldn't be insecure with theirs? "A dead mouse is still a gift at the end of the day." With his hand resting against her back and the aurazin staring up at him with those doe eyes, it was as if time stopped for a moment for her. She still needed time to process this was actually happening and that it was all very real. Her best friend, who is a very attractive man that's clearly out of her league, actually likes her. It wasn't easy to believe.</p>
<p>"Something crazy... like what? Should I be worried ?" She teased gently and began thinking of what they could do. It's the weekend, they could quite literally do anything but she couldn't think of one. It's also late afternoon already too, well past lunch hours. "Your definition of crazy can sometimes differ from mine. You holding my hand is crazy, that's my definition. But yours could be cliff diving sort of crazy... or driving off coast without a clear direction." Knowing him, it wouldn't exactly be impossible.</p> He was honestly a little surp…tag:eternalcityrp.com,2023-02-06:6610746:Comment:4343482023-02-06T17:17:36.955Z✓ Sunmin Parkhttps://eternalcityrp.com/profile/M
<p>He was honestly a little surprised to hear her said that she wanted to be selfish "That's my line" he teased softly and grinned slightly, honestly it was nice to see her looking up and thinking more positively, though he couldn't help but wonder if this was a bad time to do this. Maybe he should have kept it to himself...at least until she felt better. He didn't want to take the day away from her because it was clear that grieving was important. But he didn't want her to be sad any more than…</p>
<p>He was honestly a little surprised to hear her said that she wanted to be selfish "That's my line" he teased softly and grinned slightly, honestly it was nice to see her looking up and thinking more positively, though he couldn't help but wonder if this was a bad time to do this. Maybe he should have kept it to himself...at least until she felt better. He didn't want to take the day away from her because it was clear that grieving was important. But he didn't want her to be sad any more than she had to, it hurt him to see her go through that.</p>
<p><a href="https://64.media.tumblr.com/6dee49fc0b3951e54e7db9cfcc729452/2fb55b81b55b8785-af/s400x600/bb28e4202bfc4a66d955083e82aee0f142f71cdc.gifv" target="_blank" rel="noopener"><img src="https://64.media.tumblr.com/6dee49fc0b3951e54e7db9cfcc729452/2fb55b81b55b8785-af/s400x600/bb28e4202bfc4a66d955083e82aee0f142f71cdc.gifv?profile=RESIZE_710x" class="align-right" width="152" height="227"/></a>He pressed his lips together when she asked him if he was going to bring back a dead mouse "I can't promise you that I'm always going to be able to shake bad habits" and he didn't want to start all of this with any false pretenses, he was still a flawed man who made mistakes "But knowing I have something to return to...it gives me a reason to be more careful...to turn away when I usually might dive right in" like he had told her before, he wanted to be better and he meant that....with his whole being. He didn't want to go back to the life he had before.</p>
<p>He rested one hand gently against her back and smiled, feeling his heart practically doing flips in his chest when she said she accepted his confession. He couldn't believe this was real because honestly, it felt so surreal, like he might roll over in a moment and land with a thud on the bedroom floor. "Today is your second chance day" he murmured softly as he stroked against her hair gently "So take the chance....let's go do something crazy" he whispered softly, a few ideas coming to mind almost immediately.</p> For someone who pushes people…tag:eternalcityrp.com,2023-02-06:6610746:Comment:4344052023-02-06T17:09:05.831Z✓ Astraea Wuhttps://eternalcityrp.com/profile/Astraea
<p>For someone who pushes people away expertly like the man before her, to see him wanting to embrace and pull her in like this, she must've been someone very special to this guy. That's what she thought and that's what others would think too, especially knowing how he is. Sunmin is not a friendly person, he is closed off and standoffish, hence why people tend to give up before they even try. But he was just protecting himself and she understood that, she just wanted to tell him that if he…</p>
<p>For someone who pushes people away expertly like the man before her, to see him wanting to embrace and pull her in like this, she must've been someone very special to this guy. That's what she thought and that's what others would think too, especially knowing how he is. Sunmin is not a friendly person, he is closed off and standoffish, hence why people tend to give up before they even try. But he was just protecting himself and she understood that, she just wanted to tell him that if he allowed himself to feel, maybe he could find someone who could share the world with him. Obviously the aurazin meant anyone else but now that he has confessed like that, she suddenly thought maybe the thought of her being one of the only ones didn't seem like a bad thing anymore. "You know what... maybe it's time I start feeling a little bit of selfishness..." Because god knows right now she wants to be selfish. She wants everything and she wants him.</p>
<p><a href="https://64.media.tumblr.com/6e9e911e748201fb8e263f83b5fe7ced/63d7cffbd4bd3331-91/s540x810/8bb3acaa9dee43b06220e28898cc55e0bad3ed89.gif" target="_blank" rel="noopener"><img src="https://64.media.tumblr.com/6e9e911e748201fb8e263f83b5fe7ced/63d7cffbd4bd3331-91/s540x810/8bb3acaa9dee43b06220e28898cc55e0bad3ed89.gif?profile=RESIZE_710x" width="200" class="align-left"/></a>"Will my alley cat bring me a dead mouse anytime soon then? I sure hope not, I'd rather give him treats and cuddles than have him wander off and come back all dirtied up looking like he just got out of a fight with the biggest cat in the area" as if that wasn't nough emphasis on how much she wants him to keep his temper in check. But there were a few times when he would come back a but bruised and she would still root for him either way, nothing will change on that. "I can't believe you're the same guy that kept giving him those looks that said why are you here and why are you talking whenever I start a conversation with you. The same one who gives one word sentences in response..."</p>
<p>They have definitely come a long way. </p>
<p>As soon as she threw herself against his chest, she purred gently like a pet seeking affection from its owner "I accept the confession and I accept this cute attempt on asking me out on a date. We'll schedule that when we can, okay?" But now her heart is filled up with hope, maybe things shouldn't have to be so bad for her. "Today is still my death day... and I feel like I still couldn't move on... I don't want to stay inside and be miserable, but I don't know what else I could do."</p> He'd spent so much time in hi…tag:eternalcityrp.com,2023-02-06:6610746:Comment:4345062023-02-06T17:04:05.522Z✓ Sunmin Parkhttps://eternalcityrp.com/profile/M
<p>He'd spent so much time in his life pushing people away he was practically an expert at it, it felt almost foreign to him to try and pull someone towards him instead. He felt nervous because he didn't know how this would change things, if he was reading the signs wrong or if he made a big mistake he might lose her and he couldn't stand the idea of that. She was good for him and she gave him a reason to look forward to the next day, he didn't want to let her go. "Isn't that the only way…</p>
<p>He'd spent so much time in his life pushing people away he was practically an expert at it, it felt almost foreign to him to try and pull someone towards him instead. He felt nervous because he didn't know how this would change things, if he was reading the signs wrong or if he made a big mistake he might lose her and he couldn't stand the idea of that. She was good for him and she gave him a reason to look forward to the next day, he didn't want to let her go. "Isn't that the only way ahead..." they couldn't stay stuck.</p>
<p><a href="https://i.pinimg.com/originals/d2/ba/a2/d2baa26f7e2f434a0bd8847f58c8ba59.gif" target="_blank" rel="noopener"><img src="https://i.pinimg.com/originals/d2/ba/a2/d2baa26f7e2f434a0bd8847f58c8ba59.gif?profile=RESIZE_710x" class="align-right" width="242" height="181"/></a>He couldn't help but chuckle when she talked about how he managed to make her smile even when she was trying to be mad at him "Let's be honest...you can't be mad at your alley cat for too long, even when he brings you back a dead mouse as a gift" he chuckled and grinned slightly, oh the way things had changed in time, he felt comfortable telling her everything now but there was a time when he was closed off, barely giving her one-word sentences in response to her endless stream of questions.</p>
<p>When he turned back to face her, he stood there with a soft expression, he was putting himself out there in a way that honestly surprised even himself and he couldn't stop the way his mind brought it out in rambling sentences. She was too good for him, everyone could see that but he couldn't help himself from wanting her anyway. When she stepped closer he enclosed his arms around her and pulled her in tighter against his chest "It wasn't obvious already?" he murmured softly "Maybe we could...go for a nice dinner after skating?" that's what people did on dates right?</p>