Monachopsis (Daehyun & Yeonseok) [COMPLETED] - Eternal City RP2024-03-29T11:28:10Zhttps://eternalcityrp.com/forum/topics/monachopsis-daehyun-yeonseok?commentId=6610746%3AComment%3A431265&xg_source=activity&feed=yes&xn_auth=noYeon nodded his head slightly…tag:eternalcityrp.com,2022-06-05:6610746:Comment:4320822022-06-05T17:38:56.261Z✓ Yeonseok Leehttps://eternalcityrp.com/profile/JakeDM
<p>Yeon nodded his head slightly, Dae had been fighting for so long against himself and he was in admiration of him for being able to keep pushing forward, he knew too well how easy it was to allow yourself to be sucked into negativity and once you were pulled under it was difficult to pull yourself out again. “I get it…everyone is fighting a battle others know nothing about” and no one had the right to judge others for how they coped with such things. He could tell that Dae held a lot of blame…</p>
<p>Yeon nodded his head slightly, Dae had been fighting for so long against himself and he was in admiration of him for being able to keep pushing forward, he knew too well how easy it was to allow yourself to be sucked into negativity and once you were pulled under it was difficult to pull yourself out again. “I get it…everyone is fighting a battle others know nothing about” and no one had the right to judge others for how they coped with such things. He could tell that Dae held a lot of blame within him, hatred directed towards himself and it was clear he didn’t know how to let it go.</p>
<p><a href="https://i.pinimg.com/originals/b3/ed/43/b3ed438cc6e6145ba0465fdbd94e936a.gif" target="_blank" rel="noopener"><img src="https://i.pinimg.com/originals/b3/ed/43/b3ed438cc6e6145ba0465fdbd94e936a.gif?profile=RESIZE_710x" class="align-right" width="292" height="292"/></a>All Yeon could do was support him and be a friendly ear for him to share his issues with, should he want to. The rest could only come with time and patience. Yeon could see such a sad look in Dae’s eyes as he stared back at him which almost halted his tears in their tracks, he didn’t want to cause him any more pain. “Maybe…but it’s natural to experience emotions…especially when it comes to those you cared about” seeing Dae hurting, hurt him too. “So give me just a few minutes to be sad” he murmured softly, after that he would pull himself together and keep himself in check, because god knows one of them needed to be strong.</p>
<p>The blond pressed his lips into a hard line when Dae said he couldn’t just cancel his schedule “I can…that’s the simple fact of it, for so much time I’ve thought like that…convinced myself I couldn’t let things go or everything would fall apart…but I should give more credit to the empire I’ve built” he nodded slightly, they could do it without him, he knew they couldn’t. The kisses they shared weren’t gentle, each had meaning as he pulled the niveis in as close as he physically could. “I don’t care…I’ve never cared less about getting soaked” he murmured as he ran his fingers against Dae’s chest before starting to unbutton his own shirt.</p> "That's you… it's different w…tag:eternalcityrp.com,2022-06-05:6610746:Comment:4320022022-06-05T06:07:18.480Z✓ Daehyun Stormwindhttps://eternalcityrp.com/profile/Silver
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;"><a href="https://64.media.tumblr.com/820132629b7ea0171baa5c3c68088c77/fa94e3ae29d41d51-7e/s250x400/a5097e29cdbea31bce9f3bd9caf521406768b5d3.gifv" rel="noopener" target="_blank"><img class="align-left" src="https://64.media.tumblr.com/820132629b7ea0171baa5c3c68088c77/fa94e3ae29d41d51-7e/s250x400/a5097e29cdbea31bce9f3bd9caf521406768b5d3.gifv?profile=RESIZE_710x" width="240"></img></a> "That's you… it's different with me. Hell, nothing about us even suggests that we have the even road, Yeon…" and he did not mean that is any offensive way, but to the niveis, that's how it looks like. "I am struggling yes… but my struggles are due to the weight of my past…</span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;"><a href="https://64.media.tumblr.com/820132629b7ea0171baa5c3c68088c77/fa94e3ae29d41d51-7e/s250x400/a5097e29cdbea31bce9f3bd9caf521406768b5d3.gifv" target="_blank" rel="noopener"><img src="https://64.media.tumblr.com/820132629b7ea0171baa5c3c68088c77/fa94e3ae29d41d51-7e/s250x400/a5097e29cdbea31bce9f3bd9caf521406768b5d3.gifv?profile=RESIZE_710x" width="240" class="align-left"/></a>"That's you… it's different with me. Hell, nothing about us even suggests that we have the even road, Yeon…" and he did not mean that is any offensive way, but to the niveis, that's how it looks like. "I am struggling yes… but my struggles are due to the weight of my past and sins, which I can't even begin to describe how much pain it causes me up until today." To be someone who abetted in a crime of killing, even for the worst type of people, will always haunt you, and Dae knows that all too well. He's not cruel, he just wanted to survive. But it does make him feel better to have the valkyr comfort him like this, he needed this. No, he</span> <b>wanted</b> <span style="font-weight: 400;">this and he finally got it. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">He doesn't want Yeon to sacrifice anything more for him, much less his time. But unfortunately, there's this selfish desire in him that just wished he could have Yeon's undivided attention. Was that too much to ask for? He looked up slightly at the same time he managed to catch Yeon tearing up. For the likes of him. That made him upset because how dare he make him cry? Who was he to make this man shed such tears for? "Maybe so, but these tears should only be for tears of happiness or pleasure, Yeon, never for sadness purposes… it's wrong" he murmured. God, he never thought he mattered this much to him to make him cry just by the thought of losing him. He finally felt like he's someone important. Or maybe he's been waiting to matter to someone like this to someone that's not his sister. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">6 months might not seem long to others but to him and to Yeon? It would be a while. "Your schedule… you can't just cancel them." But the hollow eyes and tone indicates that he doesn't care. He wants him to spend that time with him. When he pulled him in for a kiss, he hitched his breath and nipped on Yeon's bottom lip gently, "Yes… do whatever you want, I'm here… I promised you 6 months, 6 months it is…" He returned the kiss with equal passion and even went to take his top off. "I'm so wet though…"</span></p> He thought he had been doing…tag:eternalcityrp.com,2022-02-06:6610746:Comment:4314422022-02-06T20:23:07.438Z✓ Yeonseok Leehttps://eternalcityrp.com/profile/JakeDM
<p>He thought he had been doing well at holding himself together, given the situation, he didn’t ever expect to be faced with a situation like this, it was almost unthinkable to him. When had his focus become so surrounded by one person, when did their happiness begin to equate to his own? He swallowed harshly and nodded to affirm his words “I managed to find a path even though I lost everything, there was a time when I thought there was no road forward…” of course it could never quite equate…</p>
<p>He thought he had been doing well at holding himself together, given the situation, he didn’t ever expect to be faced with a situation like this, it was almost unthinkable to him. When had his focus become so surrounded by one person, when did their happiness begin to equate to his own? He swallowed harshly and nodded to affirm his words “I managed to find a path even though I lost everything, there was a time when I thought there was no road forward…” of course it could never quite equate to the pain he was sure that Dae carried in his long life but he did understand the feeling of hopelessness because he’d been through it and somehow come out the other side.</p>
<p><a href="https://i.pinimg.com/originals/e2/c2/3b/e2c23bf4bdb0633e4c5720e7a1eee98b.gif" target="_blank" rel="noopener"><img src="https://i.pinimg.com/originals/e2/c2/3b/e2c23bf4bdb0633e4c5720e7a1eee98b.gif?profile=RESIZE_710x" class="align-right" width="272" height="272"/></a>“You won’t be” Yeon assured him in a whisper as he circled a soothing hand against his back, he knew he was all in from the moment Dae expressed that. He felt almost angry at himself for leaving when someone he cared for was hurting like this, if he stayed maybe he could have changed something? Perhaps it was naive of him to think so, but he couldn’t help the thoughts that came creeping in. Things were going to be complicated with his schedule, the choreography was complete and rehearsals were already well underway but now that he thought about it, it wasn’t necessary for him to be there.</p>
<p>It wouldn’t be an easy sacrifice for him but it was one he already knew he was going to make without even needing to sit and contemplate it. He wasn’t going to regret choosing Dae, he was sure of that much. He pressed his lips together when Dae said it was a lot to ask of him “I’m strong…but even I don’t know if I’m that strong” he murmured softly. He had been doing so well at holding back his tears until now but eventually, his eyes betrayed him. Feeling the comforting touch of the Niveis, he forced a smile which became a soft laugh when Dae said crying didn’t look good on him “Everything looks good on me, don’t be ridiculous” he jested.</p>
<p>He sucked in a deep breath in response to Dae’s next words and nodded his head “I won’t lie to you and say that this isn’t hard” he responded in a soft voice “But regardless…going with you is my choice” if 6 months was all he had then he was going to make the most of every single moment. “I’ll worry about the details tomorrow…tonight…I just want to get lost in you” he confessed as he pulled him in to kiss against his lips softly “Is that okay?” he murmured softly.</p> He hated being weak, in front…tag:eternalcityrp.com,2021-12-31:6610746:Comment:4312652021-12-31T15:04:03.423Z✓ Daehyun Stormwindhttps://eternalcityrp.com/profile/Silver
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">He hated being weak, in front of anyone, even in front of his own sister. He just couldn’t see himself in that kind of position but still, why couldn’t he hold in his tears when he’s sitting right before Yeon, someone who he regarded highly? Is he allowed to cry like this? Was it okay? The fact that the valkyr was trying to console him meant a lot and while it wasn’t nearly enough to make him forget what he had been thinking about, he could postpone it… to a…</span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">He hated being weak, in front of anyone, even in front of his own sister. He just couldn’t see himself in that kind of position but still, why couldn’t he hold in his tears when he’s sitting right before Yeon, someone who he regarded highly? Is he allowed to cry like this? Was it okay? The fact that the valkyr was trying to console him meant a lot and while it wasn’t nearly enough to make him forget what he had been thinking about, he could postpone it… to a much later date. He’s just letting Yeon make his argument, he thought, nothing more and nothing less. He’s his friend, someone he treasured very much, shouldn’t he do that much for him? </span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;"><a href="https://64.media.tumblr.com/71245fba6cae2f5773bf3d0bc94e72f6/fd6599293fb39ad5-8e/s400x600/2583e7459db2852b95d6c4173cc9334747d77d2a.gifv" target="_blank" rel="noopener"><img src="https://64.media.tumblr.com/71245fba6cae2f5773bf3d0bc94e72f6/fd6599293fb39ad5-8e/s400x600/2583e7459db2852b95d6c4173cc9334747d77d2a.gifv?profile=RESIZE_710x" width="240" class="align-left"/></a>“Tomorrow would be a whole new world waiting for me?” he sounded confused, much like a child still awaiting answers from adults around him, he lifted his head and stared at the male who looked like he was also about to break for him, which made the niveis upset because he wasn’t supposed to feel sad like him, Yeon wasn’t supposed to care for him this much. He was just another guy in his life, someone in his passing chapter. “I don’t want to be alone” he shook his head, he never wanted to be alone, but that’s the reality for him, who was going to stick by him when he’s like this? “I don’t have people waiting for me though so I have to make do with what I have” he chuckled bitterly. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">Dae knew he had to hear him say those words, he had to promise him that he’d stop and give up if things didn't work out even after 6 months. To the niveis, it felt short and long at the same time. “I know it’s a lot to ask someone… that’s why I’m asking</span> <b>you</b><span style="font-weight: 400;">.” He noticed the tears rolling down on his cheeks which made his heart wrenched, he extended his hand instinctively without realizing and brushed the tears away “Don’t cry…” he mumbled softly. “Crying doesn’t look good on this handsome face,” he added. When he agreed, he nodded and had a small smile “Then we should make use of our 180 days wisely, don’t we? I don’t have anything planned out or thought out, if you want me to be honest. Since this is all on you, it’s your responsibility. I know it sounded heavy and if you think it’s heavy, then you should tell me now Yeon, I won’t expect anything.” He was nobody to expect anything. </span></p> The valkyr pursed his lips as…tag:eternalcityrp.com,2021-12-29:6610746:Comment:4310782021-12-29T17:15:15.452Z✓ Yeonseok Leehttps://eternalcityrp.com/profile/JakeDM
<p>The valkyr pursed his lips as he stared back at the other male with a soft expression, he could tell how raw Dae was allowing himself to be with him and he didn’t want to invalidate that trust he placed “I know you tell yourself you don’t deserve things but the truth is, you don’t get to decide if you’re enough in another’s eyes, that’s for them to decide…” and it was evident that the valkyr was certain Dae belonged in his life, he’d known that for a longer time than he wanted to admit at…</p>
<p>The valkyr pursed his lips as he stared back at the other male with a soft expression, he could tell how raw Dae was allowing himself to be with him and he didn’t want to invalidate that trust he placed “I know you tell yourself you don’t deserve things but the truth is, you don’t get to decide if you’re enough in another’s eyes, that’s for them to decide…” and it was evident that the valkyr was certain Dae belonged in his life, he’d known that for a longer time than he wanted to admit at this point.</p>
<p>He felt almost chilled by those words, the thought of not having anything to hold on to saddened Yeon, he wanted so badly to change it, to deny it, to prove it different but he knew he couldn’t do that, if that was how Dae felt he couldn’t tell him differently “I’d tell you that tomorrow might have a whole different world waiting for you” he spoke in a soft voice as he rubbed his hand gently against the niveis’ back “And I can promise you that you don’t have to be alone, not if you don’t want to be…” he closed his eyes and took a few deep breaths because it wasn’t easy to see someone he cared so deeply for, hurting the way he was.</p>
<p><a href="https://i.pinimg.com/originals/8b/1a/91/8b1a91a8143211283429808d0278e14c.gif" target="_blank" rel="noopener"><img src="https://i.pinimg.com/originals/8b/1a/91/8b1a91a8143211283429808d0278e14c.gif?profile=RESIZE_710x" class="align-right" width="284" height="201"/></a>He was waiting patiently for Dae to answer him but when he came out with his response, the blond stared at him with a bewildered and almost pained expression because he could see the pain in Dae’s eyes. His chest felt heavy at the very thought of what Dae was suggesting because 6 months felt like such a short time in the grand scheme of things “That’s…” he teared up without even realizing he was doing “A lot to ask of someone…” he murmured, Yeon was strong but was he strong enough to let him go like that? He didn’t know.</p>
<p>But when facing the other options on the table it felt like only thing he could do to move forward from this night. He allowed a few tears to roll down his cheeks as he processed the possibility of losing the person he realized was so important in every aspect of his life “Okay…if you haven’t changed your mind by then…I won’t stand in your way” he responded in a weak voice.</p> He sniffled slightly and chuc…tag:eternalcityrp.com,2021-12-25:6610746:Comment:4311512021-12-25T14:18:19.005Z✓ Daehyun Stormwindhttps://eternalcityrp.com/profile/Silver
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">He sniffled slightly and chuckled bitterly, it was hard to push Yeon away, that much he knows about, does that mean he would stop trying to say no? Not really, but he didn’t think he had the energy to keep saying no anymore and maybe… just maybe he wants to say save me. If the valkyr wanted to help, perhaps he can do it better than what he thought he’d be able to do. Shouldn’t he give him a chance? “It’s easier said than done, valky” he chastised, “I want to…</span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">He sniffled slightly and chuckled bitterly, it was hard to push Yeon away, that much he knows about, does that mean he would stop trying to say no? Not really, but he didn’t think he had the energy to keep saying no anymore and maybe… just maybe he wants to say save me. If the valkyr wanted to help, perhaps he can do it better than what he thought he’d be able to do. Shouldn’t he give him a chance? “It’s easier said than done, valky” he chastised, “I want to give in but how can I do that when I tell myself I shouldn’t, hm?” It didn’t feel as sad anymore because Yeon was trying to lighten the mood up but it wasn’t going to be that easy. Not yet, anyhow. “</span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;"><a href="https://64.media.tumblr.com/3eff9b9ed93aa2012c151267e407a10d/99032a419544b4bb-14/s400x600/9ae233f22757f20acd6ecbf857c149f3cbf90e7a.gifv" target="_blank" rel="noopener"><img src="https://64.media.tumblr.com/3eff9b9ed93aa2012c151267e407a10d/99032a419544b4bb-14/s400x600/9ae233f22757f20acd6ecbf857c149f3cbf90e7a.gifv?profile=RESIZE_710x" width="240" class="align-left"/></a>What if I tell you I don’t have anything to hold onto? No… what if I</span> <b>don’t</b> <span style="font-weight: 400;">want to hold onto anything? What then?” To say Daehyun Stormwind was being stubborn would be an understatement, but that’s just the reality of things. When he said that, he was reminded that the blond was also someone who went through death, which was honestly not a good thing, especially considering how they died before their own time. “Yeah… I feel it… it’s nice…” he mumbled, for someone who detested any other form of heat, the warmth Yeon offered him was almost welcoming, like he was being ushered inside a sweet home. Something that only existed in his imagination far from all of this. Something impossible to feel in this life. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">He almost missed the nickname he uttered because if there was one thing he knew about Yeonseok Lee, it’s that he doesn’t use nicknames endearingly like that, he never did and even the niveis respected it by not saying any of them. “Swim in every ocean I want…?” he murmured silently and stared at his palm, wondering how easy it’d be to say his life should be cut because the time is there but what the valkyr said rang true in his ear. “180 days…” he exclaimed, and looked at him with the same broken look “6 months… one day to signify a year in my life… convince me then. If I’m not convinced… then promise me you’ll let me go. I need your word, Yeon. If I still don’t wish to stick around by the end of that, you have to let me go.” He held his hand firmly and mumbled, “I’m not going anywhere until you give me your word…” </span></p> Yeon had to admit, it was har…tag:eternalcityrp.com,2021-12-04:6610746:Comment:4312142021-12-04T23:51:19.732Z✓ Yeonseok Leehttps://eternalcityrp.com/profile/JakeDM
<p>Yeon had to admit, it was hard for him to confess all of this to the other male, he hated being vulnerable and putting himself on the line was one of the things he had refused to do. But when it came to Dae, he was willing to bend just a little. God knows the other male had gotten under his skin and he’d be lying to himself if he said they could ever go back to how they were. “That’s the whole point” he teased softly and grinned “There’s no fighting my charm so why don’t you just surrender…</p>
<p>Yeon had to admit, it was hard for him to confess all of this to the other male, he hated being vulnerable and putting himself on the line was one of the things he had refused to do. But when it came to Dae, he was willing to bend just a little. God knows the other male had gotten under his skin and he’d be lying to himself if he said they could ever go back to how they were. “That’s the whole point” he teased softly and grinned “There’s no fighting my charm so why don’t you just surrender yourself to it” he commented with a somewhat hopeful tone, maybe he wanted Dae to give in to him.</p>
<p><a rel="nofollow noopener" href="https://64.media.tumblr.com/e2d4d3b5201b5aa4ec08abc0ee5953b2/tumblr_inline_pmvnkkYJVl1rifr4k_1280.gif" target="_blank"><img src="https://64.media.tumblr.com/e2d4d3b5201b5aa4ec08abc0ee5953b2/tumblr_inline_pmvnkkYJVl1rifr4k_1280.gif?profile=RESIZE_710x" class="align-right"/></a>Yeon continued to hold him tight, arms practically locked around him as he held back tears of his own “It can be anything…anything that you can hold on to…even if it feels small…or ridiculous..it’s enough” he felt this pressure on his chest, a feeling of dread deep inside him which he recognized as fear…fear that he would lose someone that was incredibly important to him “I know Dae…it must be so hard for you to relive your death, god knows the amount of times I have seen those headlights racing towards me…nowhere to go, nowhere to run” he squeezed him just a little tighter “But I’m here…do you feel my warmth?” perhaps it was bold to assume he could make any difference to how Dae felt but he had to do something.</p>
<p>The way Dae sobbed made his heart clench, a tear of his own rolling down his cheek as his fingers stroked gently through the other male’s pale locks, seeing that look in Dae’s eyes he felt like he was losing his breath for a moment as he stared back at him with soft, emotional expression “I heard Paris is really beautiful this time of year” he spoke softly as he nuzzled against Dae “There’s so much to do…so much beauty..so many foods we’ve never tried…we can swim in every ocean like you wanted to…” he closed his eyes “All you have to say is yes baby” he reached for his hand and held it gently.</p> When he said that, it made th…tag:eternalcityrp.com,2021-12-03:6610746:Comment:4312102021-12-03T16:26:17.031Z✓ Daehyun Stormwindhttps://eternalcityrp.com/profile/Silver
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">When he said that, it made the niveis think that Yeon didn't care about others as much as he would care to hear his opinion. That meant he was important, in some way, to the valkyr, which is… honestly very scary to him. He wants to be someone but at the same time, he's scared that it wouldn't be what he thought it would. Too much hope can truly destroy a person from deep within, that's what happened to him, hence why he tried his best not to care about…</span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">When he said that, it made the niveis think that Yeon didn't care about others as much as he would care to hear his opinion. That meant he was important, in some way, to the valkyr, which is… honestly very scary to him. He wants to be someone but at the same time, he's scared that it wouldn't be what he thought it would. Too much hope can truly destroy a person from deep within, that's what happened to him, hence why he tried his best not to care about anything afterwards. "You don't exactly make it easy for me to say no, Yeon" he rolled his eyes and grumbled gruffly, where was the lie in that? The valkyr was way too charming for his own good and much like others, even Daehyun Stormwind fell victim to him. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;"><a href="https://64.media.tumblr.com/4ef9af3a529b2936c66b3d31cb094505/95c3493ebfc17805-4b/s540x810/8f5a92e06811ccabd4ccd10bfdebb53f6f3efb93.gifv" target="_blank" rel="noopener"><img src="https://64.media.tumblr.com/4ef9af3a529b2936c66b3d31cb094505/95c3493ebfc17805-4b/s540x810/8f5a92e06811ccabd4ccd10bfdebb53f6f3efb93.gifv?profile=RESIZE_710x" width="240" class="align-left"/></a>He clenched his fist, flexing his hands playfully and chuckled, it wasn't abnormal to hear such remarks coming from Yeon, to the point where he's used to it. The bond between them grew as time went by, more than he'd admit. He didn't want to leave him… but they don't always get to do what they want to. "A shred of happiness…" he mumbled to himself, he had certain times when he could recall what made him happy, including the people he surrounded himself with, but was it enough? He wasn't even sure honestly. "I don't want to feel that pain any longer… it's cold, in a place like that… it made me remember the coldness I felt when I fell into the icy cold water…" it was one of the memories that made Dae detest being what he is today. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">The feeling of the icy cold water his body was thrown in shortly after being backstabbed. It was in no way a pleasant memory, obviously, and for him, it was a trauma he couldn't quite get over. When Yeon kissed his temple, he sobbed even more, despite wanting to stop those poisonous tears from falling even further. What he said… that will stick by him for a long time. He looked at him as if he just gave him something worth living for. "Where would we go" he croaked, wiping away his tears with his sleeves as he blinked softly. Where would they go? "What does the world have to offer… why didn't I see any of it? Am I simply blind? Or ignorant…"</span></p> The valkyr parted his lips an…tag:eternalcityrp.com,2021-10-17:6610746:Comment:4296272021-10-17T22:53:32.518Z✓ Yeonseok Leehttps://eternalcityrp.com/profile/JakeDM
<p>The valkyr parted his lips and then allowed a small smile to grace them when Dae said he was kind “I don’t care about people’s opinions” he commented, though the continuation of I only care about yours lingered in his thoughts for a moment, he was sure Dae could sense the implication behind what he said. “Well you did take quite a bit of convincing at first, now it seems like you give up pretty easily” he teased softly, he liked to think Dae had come around to it because he knew it made the…</p>
<p>The valkyr parted his lips and then allowed a small smile to grace them when Dae said he was kind “I don’t care about people’s opinions” he commented, though the continuation of I only care about yours lingered in his thoughts for a moment, he was sure Dae could sense the implication behind what he said. “Well you did take quite a bit of convincing at first, now it seems like you give up pretty easily” he teased softly, he liked to think Dae had come around to it because he knew it made the valkyr happy to share some of what he had with him. He licked his lips and smirked “Your hands certainly aren’t the only thing about you that’s golden” he teased softly, by no means was that the full extent when it came to the niveis.</p>
<p>There was so much between them by now, he couldn’t deny it anymore, he couldn’t keep telling himself in his head that he could separate the friendship he had with Dae and the other ways he thought about him. He had become so significant to the valkyr in ways that the blond had never experienced in the past. It made him protective over him. “You honor the dead by living, by fighting with every breath that you have he responded in a soft voice “It doesn’t have to be a life where you save the world or figure out some impossible cure for disease...just one where you find a shred of happiness, it’s enough” he assured him as he rubbed gently against his shoulder.</p>
<p><a href="https://64.media.tumblr.com/93735dcccd1425a820fbf8388fed46b2/6e8ef4d769efbfd5-76/s540x810/61c17eb1bd0d57585f088e1e97fdaf50f71c1f6c.gifv" target="_blank" rel="noopener"><img src="https://64.media.tumblr.com/93735dcccd1425a820fbf8388fed46b2/6e8ef4d769efbfd5-76/s540x810/61c17eb1bd0d57585f088e1e97fdaf50f71c1f6c.gifv?profile=RESIZE_710x" class="align-right" width="309" height="214"/></a>It broke his heart a little to hear how hopeless Dae felt, seeing him cry the way he was only showed the valkyr how hard he must have been fighting to keep things together. Honestly, it made the younger male fear for how close to the edge Dae might have allowed himself to get. And it made him thankful that he could be the person he could confide in “I know…you’ve been in pain for so long, you feel like there’s no way out while you continue in the same circle” he murmured softly, he didn’t want to invalidate Dae’s feelings or make it seem like they were nothing, feeling like that was very real and raw.</p>
<p>“It’s not too late” he murmured softly, feeling himself tear him seeing Dae so broken as he was right now. Yeon pressed a soft kiss against his temple, his hand stroke gently against his back “You’re going to be okay...I know starting over seems impossible right now but I know you have it in you” he continued to hold him close, refusing to let go because he felt like the other male might slip away if he let up for even a moment. Seeing the way Dae’s gaze shifted he widened his eyes slightly because of the reality of what he said setting in, there was no taking it back now “More than anything” he murmured softly.</p>
<p>“I want to” he murmured softly, he was tearing up as he stared back at him “I’d do anything for you” he confessed and parted his lips slightly “I’d leave with you...we could go far away from here...see everything the world has to offer…” it was crazy but honestly Yeon was crazy when it came to Dae.</p> He wanted to smile for him, h…tag:eternalcityrp.com,2021-10-17:6610746:Comment:4294332021-10-17T13:32:32.905Z✓ Daehyun Stormwindhttps://eternalcityrp.com/profile/Silver
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">He wanted to smile for him, he truly did. But Dae hated knowing that he would only be sparing a smile that's nowhere near genuine as his heart, especially to someone who deserves so much more like Yeon. He didn't want to fake anything in front of the valkyr, no matter how badly he wanted to stand up and say he's fine. "You</span> <b>are</b> <span style="font-weight: 400;">kind, Yeon… people who don't see that are just blind…" He's obviously a good person,…</span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">He wanted to smile for him, he truly did. But Dae hated knowing that he would only be sparing a smile that's nowhere near genuine as his heart, especially to someone who deserves so much more like Yeon. He didn't want to fake anything in front of the valkyr, no matter how badly he wanted to stand up and say he's fine. "You</span> <b>are</b> <span style="font-weight: 400;">kind, Yeon… people who don't see that are just blind…" He's obviously a good person, that's why he was given a second chance, and it was justified. He pressed his lips together and cleared his throat awkwardly after hearing that blunt statement from the blond "I mean it's mostly because it is from you… if it wasn't, do you think I'd have accepted anything at all from others? Much less wear them?" He had limited people in his logbook and Yeon is definitely on his #1 dial for a good reason. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;"><a href="https://64.media.tumblr.com/f397cf29b52ad36ce69db5eff340c86e/bbdd92f24f23884b-e7/s400x600/77041231da037aedb8a78e2ec9efdb0b9d45667c.gifv" target="_blank" rel="noopener"><img src="https://64.media.tumblr.com/f397cf29b52ad36ce69db5eff340c86e/bbdd92f24f23884b-e7/s400x600/77041231da037aedb8a78e2ec9efdb0b9d45667c.gifv?profile=RESIZE_710x" width="240" class="align-left"/></a>He couldn't help but chuckle dryly upon hearing his playful remark, how can he not want to join in the fun when he's being like that? "I guess my hands could be considered golden after being able to touch later in the night" he teased. He was grateful that Yeon even bothered to spare him another glance, much less offer him more. What was thought to be just a few nights of pleasure because they couldn't get enough of each other became the start of their beautiful friendship. The connection and bond he formed with the valkyr was unlike anything else, and Dae likes it, a lot. So much to the point he's afraid of losing this momentum between them. "The least I could do is honor her memory… but I can't even do that properly…" In his perspective, he didn't do enough to honor the memory of his late mother. He felt pathetic that he was even thinking of giving up but still, that didn't mean the niveis could help himself. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">"Those who make their choices deal with them… is they're mistakes then they deal with that but I can't do that anymore… I don't know how to deal with them. No, that's not it, I don't even want to deal with them anymore. For once I just want to be free from these shackles of responsibilities and expectations." His sobs grew louder and he was trying so hard to keep the tears at bay but the sadness just keeps on coming back at him with waves stronger than before. "I feel like it's too late to do that…" he mumbled silently, what was the point of redoing himself in another image? "This isn't a simulation where I can just take the shortcut or reset the whole thing…" Perhaps that's why he wanted to escape from this desperately. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">When Yeon cupped his chin and swept the stray strands away from covering his vision, he stared at the male before him with the most vulnerable look he ever had, as if he was silently begging for him to save him. "I… make you feel alive?" Was he being delusional? Was this all just a figment of his imagination? Even if it is, even if this was just him imagining Yeon saying those words he wished he'd be able to hear, he'll bask in it. "I want the pain to stop… I just want it all to go away entirely… help me take it away."</span></p>