Cecilia chewed her bottom lip and actually did have a slight scowl on her face upon hearing Arcadia’s response about not having a choice. And no, she was not mad at her blondie, never. But she was pretty aggravated by the idea of not having her back in her arms after a long time of being separated, so the world can kindly fuck off. “You’re right, nice you is who I fell for… I remembered that pretty sweet girl who would feed strays and would help people out with their dresses. The kindest girl in town…” And she was all hers. 

It wasn’t a wonder the Italian fell for her when Arcadia was a charming girl who had everyone enraptured. “You were terrible at putting your needs before others first so I often do them for you. It’s fine, you can be a good girl. I’ll just be there waiting in the shadows, to be your selfish desires…” Knowing her, she probably had to go back to wherever she came from but Ce couldn’t think about it now. If she did, then she would never be able to move on from the broken-hearted syndrome. Or it might even be neverending considering she’s immortal. 

“I would feel a bit weird calling you anything other than Cassie or… vita mia but Arcadia’s nice. Cadia…” A sanctuary. Sounds quite ironic given her nature. Cecilia brought her hands up to cup her cheek and smiled “Don’t cry… If you don’t, I’ll give you candy.” That’s usually what she usually tried to bribe her with, it felt nostalgic. 

Cadia couldn’t help the blush that rested on her cheeks when Ce talked about the way she remembered her back then, she was proud of the person she chose to be and she didn’t regret a thing about it because it was what led to her meeting the brunette, it was the reason the valkyr had fallen for her in the end too “You were always telling me to be more selfish” she commented and pressed her lips together “But I could never reach the levels you wanted me to…” she had always been an empath before that word had the same meaning behind it that it did for her now.

She met the valkyr’s dark eyes for a moment, holding the gaze “My selfish desires…every single one of them ended up revolving around you” she confessed softly, when it came to it, Cadia knew Ce was always the one thing she wasn’t supposed to have. Back then because it was frowned over, they couldn’t be free to be happy all by themselves, they had to hide, to lie. Now…even with that hurdle finally gone, there was still something in the way between them. It was frustrating, like the world was always against them.

“It does matter what name you call…I’ll still come running to you every time” she murmured softly as she reached for her hand and held onto it tightly where it was cupped against her cheek. Her hand was trembling at first but it steadied under her touch “I do love candy…” she managed to get out without crying, a small smile appearing on her lips. She shifted on the spot a little “Can we…go somewhere quieter?” bars weren’t really her place of comfort.

The valkyr scoffed when she said she was told to be more selfish “Because I was right, you should have been more selfish baby…” It wasn’t as if Cecilia was telling her to be to the point where she would leave everyone with nothing as long as she had what she wanted, just that she shouldn’t think too much about others, and more to herself. 

“You’re too selfless and like I said yeah, that’s great because my girl is a nice person but people step on you for being too selfless too, you know… people would call you a pushover…” Back then, Ce had told Arcadia that she would just be selfish enough for the both of them. “But it’s okay…” It felt as if the world had stopped time and Ce was still there hearing every single word that came out of her mouth; she was at the center of every selfish desire? “I am…?”

Speaking of candy, Cecilia took them out of her pocket and put it in front of the blonde’s peripheral vision “Here.” She used to eat candies whenever she wanted to curb her thirst, it happens a lot whenever she has to do surgeries at the hospital. It gets better, of course. “Sure… where do you want to go? Do you want to go to my place? Or an ice cream parlour? Or… you know what? Let’s go shopping…” Just like that, the brunette took her hand and dragged her away to what seems to be a nearby mall.